sometimes i just get really sad for no sane reason
and i feel like cutting myself open to make sure my heart still functions

i swear i only get depressed when i'm alone
seeee. i'm usually high in school right? :D

YOU ALWAYS SEE ME GOING HIGH RIGHT?

right right right?

Chocolateeeeeeeeee :(

when you cry.

not worth emoing over

(repeats x927124691240 times)

=(

I stopped sleeping. I look like shit. I want to die

when people fight. it isn't really your fault right?

i think when i get home all my happiness got sucked out

I kept dozing off in the middle of exams during the 2nd week

It's so annoying to jolt awake with only 10 minutes left and blanks all over the exam sheet :(

Tiz is called veli the hardworking lor.

THANK GOD FINALS ARE OVER.

(that's capitalized because that's exactly how I feel)

Another 2 days and my blood pressure would have reached eruption level

I guess everyone should be relieved that they don't have to be victims of my tantrums anymore

(when I freak out, I scream,
shove books in people's faces and demand them to teach me Maths)

Very mature.

Seriously la.

I must have been mad to think that I could study the very night before each paper and not fail.

Cramming 6 chapters of Biology into your brain at 11pm? 

Very bad idea.

Paper 3 EXPERIMENTS wtfz.

Screw Modern Math and English too

My mum is right, I do need tuitions for those subjects :S

I guess I should shut up and stop whining since it's entirely my fault for not studying

 Damn my guilty conscience

K.Bye.

幸福那個夢 就看你和我

 Roses are red, 

Violets are blue,

Sorry. Sudden brain cramp. 

I couldn't come up with anything for the last 2 lines @.@

I can hear you screaming, "Wth where got people so laubeh one!"

Go away lurh *merajuk* 

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Last week, I went to Jusco just to get Mini Shopaholic and NOOOOOOOOOOO, it's not available here yet :( 

So I bought this instead, pfft

I read 'Bloodline' by Sidney Sheldon

and had to sleep with the lights on because I got too freaked out

It wasn't actually scary or gory just disturbing, VERY disturbing :S

Omg and I think I'm finally cured of insomia!

 It really sucks having to rely on aspirins and counting sheep to sleep,

but you know what sucks more?

When even that doesn't work and you just lie there, tossing and turning, 

and start having all these morbid thoughts which are probably the roots of turning into a psycho

But the suckiest part is when you are finally finally dozing off

and your mum barges into your room, switches on the lights and announces that it's time to rise and shine

TOTAL WTF.

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My dad bought tickets for Legend Of The Fist last night,

I didn't want to go at first because, well, it sounded lame :P

It's kinda okay though,
very typical Kung Fu movie with loads of punching and kicking

I guess people just like the idea of having this invincible hero who appears out of nowhere, dodging flying bullets, taking on 50 guys at once and walking away unscathed :D

Yes I know I look like some crazy bag lady :S

After exams,
the first thing I'm gonna do is sleep like a babi straighten my hair. 

For the 5th time in 3 years wtf.

And you ask why my hair looks like a toilet brush?

I ate curry and the color of my braces turned from

baby pink to ORANGE and light purple to GRAY.

I FEEL SO CHEATED LOR.

Cross Country Race

Omg yay I won 6th place! :D

*beh paiseh face*
Every part of my body hurts like shitzzzzz now T____T

Gonna go nap for 6 hours tatas!

*edited*

Okay I just woke up, correction,
FELL OFF the couch and the aching hasn't gone away
Now I know why Biggest Loser contestants start throwing up after workouts

I think I should have walked instead of actually running.
I can barely move now wtf.

And and congrats to LiTeng! ;D

We reached the end together :P

Have you ever.

Have you ever gone through the suckiest moments in life without shedding a tear but bawled your eyes out over some stupid shit like low grades and demerits?
Have you ever wished so hard that just for one minute, you could be someone else?
Have you ever woke up in the morning and instantly want to crawl back under the covers where you belong?
Have you ever fell into a dark deep hole and after what seems like eternity when you finally find your way out you feel like an idiot because now that you're fine you look back to find that the hole is nothing but a tiny dent in your life?
Have you ever wanted to slam doors and yell that you have had enough of their psychobabble bullshit?
Have you ever looked at the scars and felt out of control?
Have you ever expected time to stop to compensate for your loss?
Have you ever felt guilty for not being able to feel happy or sad when everyone expects you to?
Have you ever wondered if people actually meant anything they said?

No?
Me neither.

11/9

hello. just to let you know,
not all of us live in a world

where the number of Facebook friends or the length of our fringe

is the barometer for our personal happiness.

and i learnt that there will always be someone out there to put you down

i definitely don't need you to sit there secreting negative hormones

this isn't a pity post btw,
if i ever wanted sympathy i wouldn't have gone to you
maybe you are right maybe i did change maybe i wasn't the girl you first met
but that got me thinking

change isn't always bad is it? 

Oh and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LEE CHAOWEE!

Have an awesome sweet 16 and ily! ;)

P/s: will do a proper post soon, i only have 8 minutes of battery life left :(

The List

I SHALL REVEAL MY TRUE SELF!!

Don't ask why. This is very random. and embarrassing. 

(Don't use this against me in future kay)

TEN things I couldn't possibly live without:

1. Facebook for stalking pretty people

2. Chocolates

3. Thick thick books

4. Blogging

5. Gossip

6. McValue meals

7. Clementine scented body scrub

8. Contact lens

9. The smell of freshly baked bread

10. Oversize shirts

NINE ways to irritate me :

1. Blackmail me with hideous candid shots

2. Reply my message 24 hours late with an 'OK' 

3. Touch my ponytail

4. Use ' =.=' 20 times in a conversation

5. Tell me lizard jokes

6. Insult Chace Crawford

7. Sing Sean Kingston/Akon/Justin Bieber's songs

8. Talk to me while I'm watching a movie

9. Nudge me on MSN 5 times in a row

EIGHT movies/songs/books I would never get tired of:

1. This Is The Story Of A Girl - 3 Doors Down/Nine Days (whichever it is XD)

2. Your Own Disaster - Taking Back Sunday

3. The Shopaholic series

4. Toys Story 3

5. Hearty Paws

6. A Thousand Splendid Suns by Khaled Hosseini

7. White Chicks

8. Marley and Me (both the book and movie)

 SEVEN nicknames I'd had:

1. S&S

2. K.O.S

3. Teapot

4. PPK

5. Smellie

6. Lissie

7. Shortstuff

 SIX things I want to do before I turn 20:

1. Finish something without procrastinating or asking for help

2. Grow at least ONE centimeter taller

3. Bake something edible

4. Finish reading every Jodi Picoult book I can get my hands on in Malaysia

5. Streak my hair pink/red/blue/some lala color?!

6. Go snorkeling again. Without freaking out and insisting on going back.

FIVE actions that make me go 'Aww' (inside) :

1. Telling me 'Ily' before you sign off

2. Getting me food

3.Finishing my assignments/homework for me

4. Seeing pretty people coupling up

5. Giving me a manicure

FOUR things I really want right now:

1. DSLR

2. A haircut

3. Ice-cream with chocolate sauce and almonds

4. The holidays to never end

THREE reasons I can never sleep at night:

1. I get too high on sugar

2. Afternoon naps that last for 4 hours

3. Books that demand to be finished

TWO habits I can never outgrow:

1. Borrowing stuff and forgetting to return them (remind me, people!)
2. Chewing off nail polish (slap me, people!)

ONE expression I use at least once every waking hour

1. OhMyGawd.

;D

OMG I JUST REALIZED. 

when you rearrange the word male, 
it becomes lame

MALE LAME. GET IT?
& I'm not being lame ;(
It was this sudden realization I had wtf.

Spell ouch.

If you happen to be a guy,
and the thought of wanting to be female has ever crossed your mind,

I have one word for you,

CRAMPS

(I know the entire paragraph sounds wrong
but leave me I'm in too much pain to think straight)

Okaylah so we get to camwhore like mad, dress up and escape barbecuing our own marshmallows but it's still not worth it :( 

This is the part where I'm supposed to post a picture of myself adopting a sad lala look but I don't have the energy to look for one so this will do

*flashes the peace sign*

Barbecue :)

the things i avoid talking about might just be what i care about the most

have you ever thought about that?

right now, i really need.

more sleep.

and chocolate.

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Barbecue at Pang's place yesterday.

The guys did everything and all I did was eat non-stop lol

Julia <3

We girls eat more than the guys -.-

Which is just. wrong.

Ivon <3

Guys doing what they do best, being lame :P

Wendy <3

We sat in the dark gossiping because the electricity got cut off

Julia and Shireen <3 January babies :D

Powerpuff girls unite! @.@

The host :D

Watched Vampires Suck for 10 minutes
before switching to Salt when the electricity came back on
 Went back 12-ish.

Sorry for the short post I feel hungover...........

Omg he text me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LALALALALA.

If you squint hard enough.

I have better things to do than to sit here blogging 

(okay the truth is these past few days I found out that stalking gorgeous girls' blogs is much more entertaining and fulfilling)

Anyway. Let me pretend that I still have a life.

This has to be the chio-est bookmark ever

Thanks babe! <3!

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You know lizards really scare me right?

I probably got it from my mum seeing how she
is even more afraid of them than me

Last week, she left some vegetables outside on a piece of newspaper
and when she brought them in she didn't realize there was a *MONITOR LIZARD hiding beneath the vegetables

*HUGE monitor lizard

Obviously there was a lot of screaming and jumping involved it's not like I need to go into detail about that

ANYWAY. I'm glad the kitchen counter top did not collapse

We stayed upstairs until my brother came back from tuition

OMGZ. Like for 5 whole minutes I actually felt quite fond of him!!
SO BRAVE.
SO YENG.
SO STUPID WHAT IF THAT THING PISSED ON HIS FACE

Urghhhhhhhuwgdbspdbvkaqcoqubdscdakcnojsa!!

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I FINALLY DID IT.

I..................................

 ..........................................tidied my room under 12 hours!!!!!!!!!

Tell me you are proud of me :P

Please don't get creep out by me posting a picture of my beautifulshelves

And sorry no Before picture only After

I have a reputation to keep
(Let me kid myself that I actually had a reputation in the first place)

Omg I finally realized the use of a pen holder!

To stash pens duh. Not a temporary place for me to stuff wads of used tissues

(Now everyone knows Melisa Lim Ying Yee was a fan of Ashley Tisdale -.-)

So ironic I was actually awarded medals for PIANO.

Oh well. I'm pretty happy that I quit now

I finally get to have long fingernails :D

Cosmo 02 :D

P/s:
Like lah I have a chance.

I'm in debt to Xu-Xing for like the rest of my life

I want to suicide.

I feel like screaming at the top of my lungs.

Why can't the bloody thing imbang?!

We're supposed to hand in out Accounts folio tomorrow and I'm still stuck at Jurnal Am.
SHITZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.

This is EXACTLY why I don't reply strangers on Facebook

it was funny because initially i wanted you to acknowledge me so badly.
i'd wished that you'd called or text
and then when you finally did

i felt nothing

(okay i sound so despo in the first sentence)

hello i've been online since 1 in the afternoon gonna go sleep now byebye nights.

Okay the only reason why I joined Twitter was because of the iheartmalaysia contest but I can't think of anything to tweet right now.
I'll make it a point to sleep before 3am at least twice a week

Book freak.

I know I swore off buying books for 6 months but I couldn't help myself :(

I love the smell of new books, and the crackling sound of the pages when you turn them and the shiny shiny covers

*inhales*

Now I need Chocolate Run and My Best Friend's Girl for the complete set!

BUY FOR ME!! *watery eyes*

(Sorry lor for being so beh paiseh)

In case you didn't get it the first time,
it's 'Chocolate Run' and 'My Best Friend's Girl' by Dorothy Koomson
*coughs*

 The Ice Cream Girls is the best one so far!
I stayed up till 4 am to finish it and I could barely open my eyes wide enough to wear my contacts the next morning lol.

 I'm gonna blog about the story in my cheaplak English now
(Yes, English can be described as cheaplak)

It's about these two women,
Serena who is married and trying to hide her past and Poppy who just got out of jail and is trying to make Serena pay for her mistakes

Spoiler ahead!

Okay so 20 years ago, both of them fell for a History teacher who turns out to be a total psycho and has a thing for 15 year old virgins.
Like seriously la, I don't care how 'sexy' or the fact that this dude has blonde white hair and blue eyes
He's a teacher!
-_____________________-
He manipulated and abused them for almost 3 years,
and when both of them finally summon up enough courage to leave him. . .

*cues thriller music*

Read the book if you wanna know :P

(Yes I'm gonna leave this hanging because I'm mean like that)

Nights! :)