Cultural Day in college, had Henna done for RM 5 :) went back for the weekend and watched a tutorial on ombre nails and decided to try it out

i love love floral banana clips , can't stop buying 'em .____.

nothing much happened, other picts on Instagram :)
very tired.

the most fattening week of my life.

*flashback to the bacon and cheese biscuits Alson bought from Melbourne, 2 servings of Froyo w/ toppings, Boost berry drink, four-course dinner at Bon Appetit, cheese naan and Tandoori chicken, entire loaf of chicken sandwich, Subway steak and cheese and double chocolate cookie, Tom Yum campur.

oh no, and it's not even a week yet. all that in 3 days.and i have yet to satisfy my craving for Starbucks.

10 things

i look forward to ;

1. weekends

2. froyo sessions @ Gurney Paragon

3. Skyping 

4. clicking the Stumble Upon button again and again

5. staying in bed and listening to sad indie songs

6. buying a few good books 

7. lunch breaks

8. June

9. learning how to do a proper waterfall braid

10. starting over

i have this serious issue, i can't tell anyone how i honestly feel,  i'm not sure if it's the loss of blood or I'm just plain sad. fail much.

(yes, there you have, an update from me, even though less than 3 people actually bother following my blog now *doles out candies to non-existing followers)

oh and as cliche as it is to paste lyrics on blogs,

What if we stop having a ball?

What if the paint chips from the wall?

What if there's always cups in the sink?

What if I'm not what you think I am?

What if i fall further than you?

What if you dream of someone new?

What if i never let you win, chase you with a rolling pin?

Well what if i do

Giving Up : Ingrid Michaelson

having the worst case of PMS this week.
now i feel like bursting into tears for no reason.

i will set my priorities straight. i will recognize the more important things. i will not lose myself. i will work harder. i will not give in.

*chants over and over

(how this is related to a lala picture of myself i dunno)

P/s : oh and i have a roommate now.

my worst fears

 1. any incidents related to lizards
2. old ladies from horror movies, the kind with straggly long hair and yellow teeth. oh and cackles evilly every 5 seconds.
3. going bald.

scares the crap out of me

 heh i want a Paul Frank tee

good hair day! 

Well lately when I look into your eyes I'm going down, down, down, down

the comforts of home - Astro, mum's cooking, laundry basket (yes really) , the ease of falling asleep, stacks of Time magazines and Reader's Digest, clean sheets, not having to eat cereal as a substitute for a meal, the absence of dust bunnies and fat cockroaches ,

I could go on forever.

really. I have an entire stack to finish.

i don't have the time or patience to blog regularly anymore, i'm pretty amazed by my ability to have done so when i was in F3, i must have spent 90% of my time blogging then , oh God, no wonder i grew up to be the lifeless person i am now. and no wonder i failed KH in every monthly test.

  p/s: actually browsing through my phone's gallery to get inspiration wth lamest blogger ever

what is amazing? (don't cringe at the lamness it's past midnight and it's the best i can do)

1.sleeping over at Dharsh's place w/ Ellisya

we one malaysia gang .

2 .her house. TV room w/ projectors, dance studio and a mini bar , heh.

2. I Love Moo Cow's yogurt, enough said.

3.

yup cause we're ghey like that

4. a few other people

i was on a rant the other day, telling someone how i have this tendency to make others feel that i under appreciate them. truth is, I find it hard to get emotionally attached to someone, so if i started listing out the people i truly care for, the exact number would be 8 , i mean, honestly, if i tripped and rolled down an entire flight of stairs tonight (typing this out actually amused me, to be exact the word 'rolled' did) no one out there would care, probably go 'OUCH SHIT THAT SUCKS' and get on with their lives 5 seconds later, and i wouldn't mind because i would do the same to them. it's all a tad confusing but i'd rather say it then tell a benign lie, people who whine about how no one cares if they die should be stuck into blender and made into puree take a step back and ask themselves if they care about the other party as much as they want to be cared for. okay end of rant, i'm not in the slightest pissed and no nothing happened to have triggered this, I feel like ranting again that's all.

P/s: New Girl or Business Studies ?

*gives in to sleep

should i show them all my scars? cherry red, bleeding burn

i have a serious obsession with tops like this.
(oh and ya i suck at braiding but the flash makes it look less terrible)
(and my hair isn't that color, more like a dull brown bleh, probably gonna buy a bottle of hair dye and get my mum to do it for me)

ooh. and Business class is cancelled tmr.yay. more time to study for the test
 p/s: don't really get why everyone (who's isn't in Penang) is getting all paranoid over rumors of  earthquakes/tsunamis  .___________.

anyway. luckily public holiday hor, else i'd be stuck on the island too

kay i just downloaded Girl With The Dragon Tattoo , bye bye :P

the boy who trapped the sun - copper down

degree of how screwed up i am :
1.overslept twice this week
2. i'm skipping Biology class right now to study for Moral test
3. which happens to be in 3 hours and I have 10 chapters to cover, and in need of 80/100 to pass because i screwed up the previous ones so my average is a 40 which is a fail. numbers numbers
4. yet here i sit (with greasy, unwashed hair) staring blankly at a blog i haven't given much thought about in ages and contemplating pressing the delete button , knowing it's something i'll never bring myself to do
5. spent an entire week downloading music instead of studying
6. realizing every post (recent one anyways that i type out absent-mindedly) is related to me studying . or the lack of it.
7. had a rather conspicuous amount of biscuits which costs 30 cents per packet and is suspiciously addictive . (it's so cheap weih i ate 20 packets already)

that's it. i'm stopping at 7.

being reminded of your past isn't exactly delightful, and i mean those awful self-deprecating moments you have when you're 15 and in one of those phases of feeling vulnerable to the slightest criticisms or unloved or attacked  and lashing out without weighing the consequences or reasoning

it's all really silly now.

 i can't bring myself to delete those posts because it's all those 'moments' , as insignificant and trivial they are, they make me, and now they're a reminder that certain people don't matter a few years down the road, and really, are certain things worth the tears and worrying?

few things really do.

i still lose myself now and then. it's something i can't explain but it happens . it's why i really like being alone at times, to just reflect, pray and bring myself back because it's so easy to be swallowed up by everything.

*feels grateful that i don't have a roommate.

and now, i start Moral

in love w/ their songs :)

and don't give up on my blog yetttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt :( i really have TONS to study cause i've been slacking too much (braiding classmate's hair / sleeping / talking in almost every class and now i know shit about bonding forces and genetic stuff) boo-hoo. yes i blame myself.