aren't you bored with me going on about my studies already
 *pretends that at least one person remembers the existence of my blog and actually bothers to wade their way through my mindless ramblings (not that I mind, I feel quite safe posting stuff here provided it isn't shared on FB hahahaha)

ALSO SICK OF ME GOING ON ABOUT MY WEIGHT RIGHT.

to be honest, quite sick of myself also la (I'm pretty sure the word 'sick' will be abused through out this post) and having to juggle dieting , studying studying studying , losing sleep (and well other incidents)

I know la. I get so worked up over everything, Mum's so accustomed to me being awake at 6AM watching TV when I'm 'going through my worrying phases' that she makes me fried eggs and fruit juice involuntary T.T can I just go home now T.T

it used to be funny when I'd tell a complete stranger I'm doing A levels and their immediate reply would be 'wah so smart' or smthg along that line (Not being behpaiseh/referring to myself as being remotely smart but happened at least 5 times d)

this year I came to realized that.............it's true. anyone can study A-Levels but you have to be either really freaking smart or hardworking to get A*s. actually more towards the smart part LOL and I can;t stand studying anymore because the more I do, I feel so beneath everyone. like one of those kids who get picked on in American teen movies cept no one is picking on me except maybe Chemistry............

anyway, I really couldn't make myself sit down and attempt to comprehend Chemistry (72 DAYS LEFT) today so here are tons of pictures from my phone

my classmates! ♥ hang out w/ them pretty often now, had din at our fave tomyam steamboat place. Was managing my diet pretty well till today when I finally caved in and had Hokkien mee for lunch as well...................................

(I think the serving size we had was for 5-6.............)

(sort of) successful meals 

stir fried chicken and pumpkin / grilled salmon steak / steamed salmon steak and lots of spinach / oats with raisins and walnuts

I actually like healthy food a lot. which is also a problem on it's own because I also like all sorts of food a lot.

halfway through making Julia's card 

I'm not sure what this dessert is made up of but I think it tastes amazing. (damn fattening though so not gonna ask my Mum to make it again T_T)

Roasted almonds and novel from KDU's library otw to Malacca (the jam was really bad)

I can't even describe how good is this -reason why I could never start a food blog/be a food writer of any sort. anyway my maternal grandma makes amazing Nyonya Acar T_T

cousins bonding time

Snake year kay this is our uber kewl snake pose

*random huge pict of me pops out

HIHIHI

Dim Sum at Xuan Xin!

(but I decided I don't like their food that much anymore)

BBQ at Pang's place. I'm not sure how his roasted marshmallows turn out to taste so perfect but I'm contented to just eat

HAHA Clarence with icing on his face

oh hihihihihihihihi

STUBBED MY TOE. SO PAINFUL WHEN HALF YOUR TOE NAIL FALLS OFF T_T

HAHA please excuse my awkward hands on hips pose but I was trying to 'hold' the dress in place hahahaha the nicest dresses never comes in your size haih

IT'S LIKE TWILIGHT WEI even though I'd only read past page 12 *judgmental

no time to read la plan to use up my RM250 voucher on LOTS OF BOOKS and save them to be read AFTER A LEVELS

 

Haha this is pretty random but it was a sort of blue day ystd (with the rain and Math test wth) didn't plan this but almost everything I had on was blue (including shorts hahaha)

ok roommate's asleep d blogging in the dark LOL nights!

this isn't a post on my nonsensical ramblings

i'm this close *does the finger thingy to giving up . 

(see I stopped at that, added a full stop some more)

and I'm like. OH SHIT.

i have NO IDEA what's going on in Math/Stats/Chem (cause I haven't been to any classes for a few weeks -___-)

*hugs myself *so proud of myself scribbling own notes all (even though I couldn't read my own handwriting but still achievement) 

and i'd only studied Biology (because I only study subjects I find less difficult sounds logical anot)

or in this case subject.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH BYE BYE *refers to picture above . THIS WILL BE MY LIFE FOR THE NEXT 106 DAYS

so if you scribble your name down on a lantern, watch someone lit it up, murmur your prayers under your breath till it disappears, swallowed up in the darkness

is that the most childish thing to do? 

I know that I really should have more faith, and be more dependent on God as my sole provider, I have so much proof of His blessings and yet, yet I stumble so often, yet at times I don't go to Him but stubbornly go ahead mapping out my own life.

and now I'm at the lowest point I'd ever been.

is it a really bad thing that i don't have an ambition anymore

ohshitohshitohshitohshitohshitohshit less than 100 days to A2 and I'm 8 chapters behind in Math

CNY II

(once again, blogging because I'M SO FREE CAUSE I QUIT COLLEGE here are picts that didn't make it to FB)

HAHAHA our faces in the picts on the left, sleepy like what only

attended church service in Penang, had lunch at Brussels Beer Cafe

FACE SO SLEEPY

(same expression in every picture)
(I think I spent the first 4 days of CNY looking and feeling sleepy)


my grandma LOL

quite insulting, my face so big right in front of the lens and my camera focuses on my brother

pork and bacon burgers and frankfurter yum






3 generations LOL and this is the widest smile my grandpa could muster up. took me damn long to coax him into uhm flashing this smile.

(at least the edges of his lips are curved upwards , it's smthg)


it's denim day


and also how gay can i look day

Drinks and Cakes @ Chinahouse

HAHA startled by the flash

(my brother was driving)

funny story : lost our way 

embarrassing story : lost our way on the mainland

Steamboat dinner @ home

yaaa. lose weight?

FAT HOPES

i find this really intriguing 

p/s: Happy Valentine's Day ! :D

CNY I

Reunion dinner at home in Penang,

(which is exactly like a normal family dinner)

i shall come up with my own name for each dish *channels my inner Top Chef

Sea cucumber, Mushroom and Abalone (with lettuce underneath for decorative purposes)
(not sure if it's steamed / braised / some other cooking method . sorry lol)

Steamed Scallops and Snap Peas

I laughed so much and so hard at this omg I can't even start on the reasons why

oh ya and name - roast chicken stuffed *LOL with all sorts of *LOL nuts
I googled and a better name would be - Roast Chicken With Mixed Nuts Stuffing

Homemade Pork Rolls

Stir Fried Mixed Vegetables

Steamed Cod Fish

no idea why i'm so free, anyway not going back to college for classes for a few days ahahaha gained so much weight it's not even funny anymore (not that it even was in the beginning)

Nights! more good food for the next few days *thrown into despair