MOOCOW

 2-4pm's class was cancelled today so I went shopping @ Gurney w/ Dharsh :D

@ Macaron Cafe. Clockwise from bottom :

English Rose, Mango, Vanilla, Lime Basil, Blueberry

 (ikr so smart can remember some more) (green one tastes like old lady's soap) 

overrated weiiiiiiii, and empty calories T_T

 (I would buy the bustier . . .if i had anything to fill it with HAHA)

<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

I blogged today because I left my pencil case in college so I can't study *SNORTS.

and my blog lacks a post with pictures :P (yup even though all these are from Instagram)

did i mention that I LOVE MOO COWWWWWWWWW? kay byeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

I've never wanted to be in a relationship. I just don't.
and by relationships, yes I do mean the whole boyfriend girlfriend affair,

(Spared me the whole teen angst related to broken hearts and ex-boyfriends)

In all honesty, *clears throat, I've always been there to scoff at certain couples in high school (yes now you know hor) , rolled my eyes inwardly and silently went 'ah knew it' when they broke up 

okay go ahead and throw something at me.

I still find it amusing when people couple up in high school. 

how do you face the same person you supposedly claim you loved once and watch them date your classmate.

okaylor. you can call me immature for not being able to let go so easily and let them 'move on'

but again. isn't the point of a relationship to be together for a really long time yes until you get married , squeeze out a few kids , fight over household chores and mortgage, make up and repeat the whole cliche cycle again . 

now I shall stop before someone drives a bulldozer over me 

oh wait. most annoying question i was asked in my life

F1 kid : Don't you feel lonely without a boyfriend ?

*explodes.

Let me get back to you when I'm 40 and unmarried, living in a household of pugs.

For now, sorry too busy being shallow having shopping sprees with girlfriends and dining out with guy friends and not having to care about anyone specifically

^^

today

1. Cold Coffee - Ed Sheeran
2. 12 Fingers - Young The Giant
3. Ribbons - Ingrid Michaelson
4. Anyone Else But You - The Moldy Peaches
5. 9 Crimes - Damien Rice
6. Tire Swing - Kimya Dawson
7. Counting Crows - Mr. Jones
8. Save Tonight - Eagle Eye Cherry
9. Five Years - Noah And The Whale
10. Make A Beast Of Myself  - Twin Atlantic

i need a life.

yayy ice-cream 

maybe not.

so I was fine yesterday. and the day before.

never mind the achy feeling I chose to ignore, never mind the niggling discomfort that I'm binge eating, never mind that sheer emptiness is worse than plain old hurt

and I thought it would diminish over time.

apparently not when I wake up crying

see, for a while, I refuse to admit that it made me happy, more than happy maybe, turned up the corners of my mouth, gave me a bounce in my walk, and every cliche quote you can come up with that oozes with happiness

so now that it came back to pummel me right in the gut, I don't have a right to sit and wallow in self-pity do I.
I want to look back, filter every moment, delete off the less than perfect moments, and when I pierce it back together, it will be how I want to remember it by, who cares that the pieces slide together into the empty spaces and never fit quite right, I like it that way.

for now, coffee :D

I was ready to rant. really. but then now, I think, I would rather eat homemade Nyonya kuih and watch Pretty Little Liars

Ikr, terrible timing when semester exams are 2 weeks away.

OH WELL.

my Mum is awesome ^^

Blessed Mother's Day :D *says this out loud to no one in particular

this week I,

1. decided to start jogging again since i find it impossible to cut back on food and have been substituting breakfast and lunch with chips and cookies T___T the calories T___T (only manage a 15 minutes jog thrice a week but it'll do for now) 

2. had my first ever study session (I did 11 questions of Math in 2 hours) WIN or FAIL you decide

3. forgave

a hugeass picture to show off my pimples and double chin

and also the sad face 'cause I miss Mum.

IAMSOSLEEPYRIGHTNOWIDUNWANSTUDYEVENTHOUGHIHAVELESSTHANAMONTHTOSEMESTEREXAMBYEBYE

I really need to STUDEEEEEEEEE. Semester exam in a month boo-hooooooooo. and I am annoyed to admit that Biology is getting on my nerves , I used to be rather fond of it .___________. oh God one page on replication of DNA alone took me a dozen cookies and an entire night. also need to download ALLLLL of Noah And The Whale's songsssssss. and get enough sleep 'cause my biological clock is pretty screwed and my period's all messed up (like who the heck has it 3 times in a month? oh me) Yup. Definitely need to see a gynecologist. hmmmmm. Parents leaving for KL so I'll be home with the grandparents for the weekend, heeeeh pizzaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, lots of it. now if only i'd bothered to finish my driving lessons. but pizza sounds fine to me especially when it's delivered to my house. oh oh reading John Grisham's The Client now (yup his books were the reason why i initially wanted to do law hohoho) (don't ask why i changed my mind)

if you want to know why i sound drunk it's because i am i'm hungry

i'm turning into a big fat walking cliche.

question marks

when am i supposed to move on;

how do i know which delicate junction to pick, to know what is right, to have the self-assurance that i can pick myself up, brush myself off and breathe when it's over;

what if it doesn't end when i want it to, and i'm stuck in a web of spun lies and unforgiveness;
what do i do when i'm daunted by the unknown; 

what if i lose every ounce of trust i ever had; 

i honestly don't know but to trust in God. 

p/s: childish thought running through my head. thoughts that i will regret tomorrow. thoughts that haunt you when it's past midnight and you're feeling down

a bit disheartened to be honest.

list of songs i really like ,

1. Seaside : The Kooks
2. Bloom : The Paper Kites
3. Giving Up : Ingrid Michaelson
4. Ten Thousand Words : The Avett Brothers
5. Airplanes : Local Natives
6. People : Mac Miller
7. Worth Wondering : Bronze Radio
8. Lego House : Ed Sheeran
9. I Still Miss You : Hawk Nelson
10. The Summer : Josh Pyke

ikr, most of them are slowwwww songs . just downloaded a bunch . yay.