shyte so brutal Chemi P2 and Business Studies P2 in a day then Bio P3 the next day die also lai bu ji have to start studying like maddddddddddddddddddddddddd tmr (ystd and today off day for me to watch tv and youtube till i forget everything i'd studied hahaha the irony)

tomorrow. tomorrow i will lock myself in my room without my phone and finish everything *SAYS THIS OUT LOUD WITH CONVICTION

(despite the fact that someone told me i have the attention span of a housefly HAHAHAHAHAHA)

quite true la.

(cos while typing out the prev paragraph i noticed my nails were chipped and went and searched for a nail clipper and then saw that Dogs 101 was showing on Animal Planet so i went to sit down and watched tv for a few hours but at least i'm back finishing this post) (even though it's the most unbeneficial crap anyone has ever read) hahahaahaha

sorry ah

i forgot what i wanted to blog about btw.

uhm a list of songs to make up for that ?

Ivory Road - King Charles
Lonely Boy - The Black Keys
Mad World - Gary Jules
1957 - Milo Greene
Let Her Go - Passenger
Thrash Unreal - Against Me
Tautou - The Narrative
Gimme Twice - The Royal Concept

p/s: i rather waste my time doing this instead of studying

i just want AS exams to be over and sleep for one week straight. emo shit.

Even youths shall faint and be weary, and young men shall fall exhausted; but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; 
they shall mount up with wings like eagles; 
they shall run and not be weary; 
they shall walk and not faint.

Isaiah 40:30-31

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okay. I just realize how terribly incapable I am of dealing with stress.
sure, I figured it out last year when I went without sleep for 2-3 weeks pre and during SPM (not worth it at all -_______________-) and earlier this year when some pretty shitty stuff happened and I had to skip classes to stay home -______________________-

(now that i think of it it wasn't that shitty i was just being lame)
(okay but right at that moment it scared me so bad so idk maybe it was*contradicting)

but what kinda person doesn't sleep for 3 days in a row and freaks her parents out by breaking down and sobbing on the phone at 5 in the morning over MATH

oh hi there.

and that was done sans caffeine

pathetic-ness level > infinity

OK DUN CARE D MY EXAMS END ON THE 22ND OF NOVEMBER I WILL SLEEP EVEN IF I HAVE TO RESORT TO SLEEPING PILLS/FLU MEDICINE/ANY OTHER SOURCE OF MEDICATION WHICH INDUCES SLEEP OR ELSE I WILL LOOK LIKE SHIT AND FAIL EVERYTHING *says everything in one breath with determination

and that doesn't work then i'll just look like shit and fail everything

ahahahahahaah. and i will sleep tonight instead of staying up to watch TV *DETERMINATION

a week or two before my exams started : 

Sushi Bonanza 4 days in a row HAHA // Korean food w/ Dad (i can't stop proclaiming how much I love kimchi) - HI MY NAME IS MELISA AND I LOVE KIMCHI // doggy kisses // amazing homemade pork burgers w/ bacon @ Brussels Beer Cafe, Gurney Paragon, and the price is pretty reasonable :D on par with Marshall's la

 Lunch @ Seoul Garden, Gurney, felt really sick after that but then it comes with having no self control  ^^ // dinner @ E-Gate's Secret Recipe and we decided it'd be weird to not order cakes so there , calories // MooCow Froyo FTW // breakoutzzzz shitzzzzz ok but at least now better d after using face masks

shopping spree w/ Mum  //  Clarence's dog so cute omg fur damn shiny some more // Panicked - Started studying // Chocolate chips and walnuts, best snack ever, but my mum got kinda pissed cause i finished 1kg worth of walnuts within a week and ya pimples cause of this so now must find smthg else to snack on hmm

Hahaha Wendy sent me this and I find it cute //earrings // super lame convos with Wendy ahahaha

okay so my blog -> stress, food, stress, vain pictures, stress

and i stopped going to the gym/jogging > 2 weeks d #fail

okay bye. Bio paper in 5 days SHYTEX

@Starbucks, Gurney Tower -> this is what we do instead of studying.

oh and i have ......................

acne now. FML.

i always look like shit during exam periods and sien wei exams mean must go out into the world looking like shit cannot stay at home and continue eating junk food 24/7 and being blissfully ignorant of my expanding thighs/waistline/face/idk

point.

 it's pretty sad that it doesn't work that way right, that the person you have feelings for don't always feel the same for you, that you can sit there all day waiting for X to go online to call and X goes off to someone else who doesn't give a shit about  (like you do)

and you end up reaching for that bucket of ice-cream cause feelings need to be eaten 

reality check, liking someone doesn't mean they HAVE to like you back 

it's so damn sad. 

it's so sad that all i want to do is curl up in ball , hide in a corner and stay there forever

now i'm convinced i'll end up being categorized as one of those "50 , lives alone with 99 pugs" type of people. HAHAHA WTH

-------> thoughts when it's 4AM and i can't sleep

and my AS exam starts in exactly ONE WEEK *FREAKS OUT . BEEN GOING OUT EVERYDAY INSTEAD OF STUDYING DIE LA DIE LA DIE LA DIE LA DIE LA.

I WANT A PUG AHHHHHH.

BYE

p/s: me when i don't sleep

hate studying hate A levels hate Bio hate Chemi hate Math wanna sit at home and watch TV and eat chips and grow damn fat ok bye