want or don't want

I JUST FEEL HAPPY. I'M EATING CAKE. CAKE MAKES ME HAPPY. I KNOW I WILL REGRET THIS WHEN I WAKE UP TO A BLOATED FACE AND EXPANDED WAISTLINE. OK NOW I DON'T FEEL SO HAPPY ANYMORE. OK I EAT ONE LAST PIECE. I THINK THIS HAS 600 CALORIES IN IT I KNOW CAUSE I GOOGLED IT DAMNIT WHY DID I GOOGLE IT I SHOULD JUST SWALLOW IT AND PRETEND IT'S A PIECE OF BROCCOLI YES THAT'S WHAT I WILL DO I'M SO SMART. YUMMY BROCCOLI. OK NOW I FEEL BETTER ,TYPING IN CAPSLOCK MAKES ME HAPPY TOO.

NOW I GO DO SMTHG THAT WILL MAKE ME EVEN HAPPIER LIKE, IDK , EAT MORE CAKE?

question, someone told me I'm mad, I am?

i like cake and capslock that's all :(

hello!

shyte.

so fat and tan

shyte.

*cries in despair

okay bye bye tmr going shopping yay

*mood swing damn fast

Do you wake up on your own and wonder where you are?

went back to high school today with Clarence and Xu-Xing, finally!

(i still find it a teeny bit awkward meeting teachers)
i stand there grinning like an idiot and go, yeah yeah kat KDU buat A Levels *grins some more. and everyone had to exclaim how different and 'modern' i look, yes 3 teachers used to word modern 
(I was wearing jeans LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL)
or they probably were making a comparison -when i was in high school, i wore baju kurung (improper way) and looked like i rolled out of bed without bothering to comb my hair or wash my face (quite true also) hahahahahahahahahahahahaha.

SO HAPPY I DON'T HAVE TO GO BACK FOR FORM 6

Had lunch @ Dominos after that :)

p/s: 10 more episodes of Pretty Little Liars to go :P

the first

SEMESTER BREAKKKK :D (for 2 whole weeks!)

I can't tell you how relieved I am to finally break away from the whole mundane routine (if you're in A-Levels you'd understand, while your friends in other courses have breaks for 3 months at a time all you get is a total 4 weeks in a year but it's okay it will be worth it *says this out loud to comfort myself) 

(pict taken from my hostel room) 

(I'm not sure why I'm awake now either when I slept at 3)

anyway, had a really good time yesterday (last days of sem exams! okaylah I fared badly in every paper but what to do hor lazy mah)

feels like our 'reunion' or smthg, cept that a few people are missing here 

oh and this photo was taken in China House (somewhere near the jetty don't ask me for the exact location I'm the sort of person who gets lost going to the toilet on the second day of school and in my own neighborhood , and it took us many wrong turns and phone calls to get there, had to meet up at Gurney Paragon some more lol lol)

this place, is beyond cool *grins like an idiot (and I know saying that sounds so juvenile but it really is) 

plus they have some really really good books! 

and granted most items on the menu were pretty pricey, but the tiramisu cake T___T sooo goooood. and it was a huge slice for RM12 so okayla quite worth it also *contradicting 

 the chocolate pistachio wasn't that good though

:D

 LOLLLLLL.

Left for Gurney, did some shopping, watched Madagascar 3, had a really late dinner at James Foo (latest dinner I ever had in my life, my dinnertime is usually 5.30 .__.)

 whole new level of vanity -camwhoring while driving

 excuse my sleep deprived face

so that's 2 things ticked off my list,

China House and hanging out, but I'm pretty sure I'll spend my break doing the latter heh

1. get my license. like really. just go for the test and get it over with (and hopefully *clasps hands together and prays, pass)

2. go back to high school. (because the last time I left I was a mess and went off without even thanking any of the teachers -____-)

3. turn off the TV, switch off the laptop and just park my butt down on the comfiest chair and study already

4. exercise

5. lots of me time to read (going off to buy more books later!) , slather oatmeal and egg mask on my face hahahahaha i really like making homemade masks and just stay home and bake cookies

(okay the baking part was a lie, my mum will bake and I'll pretend I helped)

yes I'm excited over a break which lasts for 2 weeks. 

now going off to pack :D byeee!

LOOOOOOOOOOLLLLLLLLL. I wrote a letter. and posted it. HAHAHAHAHA.

omg so cheesy of me laa.

nvm it's anonymous

i have an exam tomorrow

i really should be studying

i spent the night reading letters to crushes

it's so, relevant.

one day, i might just send one myself

:P

SPM's Chemistry, is nothing like A Level's Chemistry. 

omgggggg howwwwww what is hybridization and Pi bonds ?bO2*^@#^)GB9863()^ howwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

after months, I finally figured out how to get bouncy natural looking curls without dumping a ridiculous amount of products on my hair (before this I used 3 different types of conditioners and it still looks terrible hahahha)

1. unwashed hair  (now i wash my hair on alternate days unless i go for a jog or happened to sweat a lot)

2. tying my hair up in a bun for an entire day (but also depends how i tie sometimes turns out like crap)

3. not using bobby pins that often

4. use olive oil (leave it on for 30 mins and shampoo after that) 

okay the toilet got messy after that and i hope my mum doesn't ask why a huge proportion of her bottle of olive oil magically disappeared 

HEH. 

(been Stumbling for wayyyy too long , need to start Bio now byeee)

p/s: I ate 4 bowls of cereal for dinner bLOSh3rn365*^$*@gd98b! 

p/p/s: *added as an afterthought 2 hours later when I really should be studying

my eyebrows. my really thick man-like eyebrows are gone. HAHA. 

I WANT SEM EXAM TO END NAOOOOOOOO.

you know.

you leave because you know,
you know the house can't contain your anger.
see, for anger, being a parasite isn't enough,
it chews it's way through your insides, swallows up happiness , fills up the empty void and it still will never be enough

it rages, hurtles across the room, ruining everything in it's way, tearing apart relationships, dealing out blows, resonates against the four walls, and when it's finally satisfied it returns to you.

and you know,
you'll nurture it.

and you know,
it'll destroy you.

don't you.

Melisa

cause when i see you you rip my heart out

hostel's wifi crashed and it has already been a week :(

Yum.

couldn't tell the sidewalk from the main road or the drain so I decided it wasn't worth the risk walking to college. yes I'd rather miss out on Bio lab then walk around college looking like a crawled out of a drain (literally) .

what a waste since I usually oversleep for my 9am class and this was one of those days I woke up on time.

not that I actually slept much that night.

10 days to sem exams . *buries head in tubs of ice-cream .

I NEED TO START STUDYING TODAYYYY MUAHAHA BYEE.