i will start doing math even though it freaks me out knowing how bad i am at it

*sips 3rd carton of chocolate milk

time to get fat, unhealthy, moody ...............*throws in a bunch of adjectives that describes me when i'm stressed

ok bye

edited : just remembered it's Independence Day from a convo i had w/ Wendy and Ferris . uhm yeah *too stressed . okay bye .

when I was 5, I wanted floor length hair
when I was 8, I wanted a puppy
when I was 12, I wanted to be 18
when I was 15, I wanted to leave
when I was 17, I wanted coffee, lots of it, all the time

now I want to be alone most of the time ;

quick update

1. Deactivated Facebook (almost a week now and I feel  . . fine) Problem is instead of mindlessly refreshing my homepage I now Google random shit -Why do my nails keep peeling?? / black tea vs green tea.

p/s: black tea kept me awake for 2 nights. that's how bad caffeine affects me (or it might be because I drank it non-stop because I heard it 'makes your skin glow naturally' , i dunno if it works because the lack of sleep made my skin shittier T___T)

2. my roommate is moving out T_____________T I doubt she reads my blog but she's really awesome and I'm SO DEVASTATED T____________T (tmr we're gonna take our first pict together hahahaha) new roommate moving in end of this week d T_______________T

okay. must be nice *inhales

3. my trials in 2 weeks ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. (one week break but cheat one 'cause it's called study break and have to come back to college for lab trials)
*on the verge of tears

my mock bio lab exam was so terrible , I didn't know when to use the stopwatch so I just left it out and okay confession , until now I dunno how to convert nano to mm all that

.______________________.

in A-Levels some more.

4. I got bangs .

nah. not obvious la. Give up on my hair d.

p/s: this is the kind of shit I do late at night instead of studying
p/p/s: I know ppl keep reminding me that I can't study for A Levels the way I did for SPM but too late already okay

that awful feeling when;

- you'd never felt so distant from your closest friends (or are they anymore?)
- everyone around you seem to be answering hundreds of Math questions in a robot-like manner (precise and fast) while you still go harh wth is this, over Question Number 1
- you're 45 minutes late for Bio class
- Genting's amazing chee cheong fun is closed and you try out another stall's and it makes you wanna puke
- you know you're totally a hundred percent screwed for your A Levels and should gone to Disted instead (nono nothing to do with the lecturers in KDU, they're all amazing, i just suck, period)
- both parents start yelling at you over the phone

dunno what to do.
oh and btw. I joined a gym.

okay bye.

my mood swings are driving me mad. yes i am mad. so much to study. what have i been doing for the past few months. everything and anything but studying

nice .

If we don't leave now, we will break, we will falter, we will fade

celebrated my Birthday and Dad's the same way we do every year (buffet dinner at some hotel and leave overwhelmed by guilt and promises to do push ups and sit ups the next day) - next day had Dim Sum for brunch hahahahahahaha

 Hahahahaha he looks damn beh syok cause i forced him to take picts w/ me
and he returned to KL the next day for some cheerleading competition .______.

(and i thought i had someone to drive me around during the weekends)
(my driving skills still limited to driving at 20km/h around my taman HAHA)

 why is lamb meat so nice why

(why i eat so much why)

 oh hi *shy

HAHA such an unflattering picture . oh and all my chins say hi

(up to you to decide how many)

 so I'm 18 and Dad's 48. Hmm.

Btw, arghhhh would have send this to be developed if it wasn't for the kid photobombing :(
(and also i look blardy fat here but that one normal)

oh and i don't have pictures of us cutting the Birthday cake at home cause my camera ran out of battery
and even if i had i wouldn't post la cause everyone was half awake and in their pajamas HAHA (okay that was me actually)

oh and I got hooked on to baking recently.
(funny thing 'cause i used to be a disaster in the kitchen and the only help i could offer was to wash the bowls which i liked doing cause got cookie dough and icing to scrap out and eat wth)

red velvet cake which turned pretty yummy ! (i think, hahahaha)

Browines or Lemon Crinkle Cookies next? 

p/s: i wish i would stop feeling so blardy emo now. 

and maybe under that mask of self pity i'll find me

my mood swings arghhhh

But I've been at this far too long to act like that when we should be in perfect harmony

EMO WEIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII.

Wanted LCW to win soooo badly T______________________________T
and no it isn't because of the free BR ice-cream if Swensens/Haagen Daz giving out free ice-cream I guarantee explode and break down in front of the TV set haahahha but Gold Medal lehhhh :(

*inhales.

 the past few weeks ;

 my goldfishes from Bon Odori! Vinson took them back to his hostel and Whatsapped me a pict of them, 2 died dee :( // DAMN GOOD CHEE CHEONG FUN AT GELUGOR // hehe in class // went to Sungai Dua for an amazing lunch with the guys , the popiah eat how many pieces also not enough lor // Alson's Pomeranian :D

 Dad !

 Yu Shen :D (he'll probably scold me for uploading this here hahaha)

we were headed for lunch @ Brussels Beer Cafe @ Gurney Paragon

I really like lamb.

3/8

 long skirts :D and Aldo was having sales :D

watched Total Recall and chilled at Starbucks.

okay bye bye :D

so i was wondering if i was just 'one of those girls'

April/May/June ;