Obsession, Dominating, Power, Addiction,
Troubled, Enslaved, Jaded, Fear,
Bitter, Dissatisfaction, Frustrated, Deterioration,
Uncertain, Resentment, Spiteful, Grieve,
Negativity in the most offhand manner,
What grows on you at 3 in the morning?
You are better than this,
One black spot tarnishes a blank canvas,
Until you decide to pick up that brush,
Dab it into acrylic paint of every hue, tone, tint and shade,
Tentatively daub, foreign swashes against a familiar background,
Over time, colours merge, vivid and dull accentutating each other,
Concealing the black spot.
You wonder if it remains obscured from view to relieve heartaches,
Or if it fuses in to complete the painting.
Melisa,
At 3 in the morning, you tell yourself,
You have to be better than this.
